Crap I’ve started obsessing AGAIN.
How many times can I possibly rewind events in my mind?
My day was great and super busy. Worked and ran errands for my Halloween party that I was throwing for a bunch of the kids that live in my property. Turn out was great, had about 25 kids show up to carve pumpkins, eat pizza and watch a movie. Reminded myself why I have such a huge respect for teachers and daycare providers! Thought about going over to a friend’s “adult” Halloween party after but was so burnt out I instead hopped in the shower washed my day away and decided to just relax.
That’s when it started…Well that’s a lie, it did start earlier but the fact that I was busy made it easier to push to the side. Thoughts if “him” kept creeping into my mind. This is seriously ridiculous! I actually went as far as to pull out my damn runes, seriously??
I went far back tonight with the memories. You know the really good ones from the beginning giddy state. Smiling like a damn fool then sad all in the same breath. Wishing he would call or text then reminding myself the truth of the situation. Didn’t help that I watched a show on tv that spoke about similar circumstances that had a positive outcome. TV is the devil I tell you!!
So now here I sit….releasing…IT’S OVER…let it go…let him go. PERIOD WOOOOSAAAAW…that is all.
Just another day in the life of my thoughts…